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12 October 2012 @ 11:33 pm
my friend and co-worker died today. out of nowhere. she was smiling when she left. then someone found her in the parking lot.

I had never seen CPR performed on someone before. And from the fifth floor of our office building looking down, it was no less surreal. We knew it wouldn't end well. The ambulance didn't even start driving until 15 minutes after they lifted her inside.

I guess I'm just glad that the last time I spoke to her, I made her laugh.
01 January 2012 @ 08:04 pm
2011 wasn't a super eventful year, which unlike previous years which had many negative events, that fact made it a much better year.

In March I moved in with Mike and so far we haven't killed or started hating each other so I think it was a good move :)

In June I took a minor demotion at my job in order to move to another department where I'm way happier and have already been promoted. In theory I shall be promoted again by october of this year as that as what my manager has indicated she plans for me.

The summer was the first time I have painted and produced artwork since I graduated in May of 2009. That's one heck of a dry spell and I'm happy with what I made.

The fall saw me lose my status as being the only one in my family without glasses. Initially I thought it would bother me, but now I almost think I look better with glasses than without them. Vera Wang for the win.

My goals for the New Year are primarily to lose the weight I put on in the last 2and continue saving for a house. The fact that I apparently can no longer have wheat might help with the weight loss as many junk foods and high fat items are made with wheat/gluten. Good bye pasta, donuts, cookies, we had a wonderful thing going. Not getting a bonus certainly didn't help with the savings, but I'm pretty sure with some strict budgeting I can make some headway this year.
14 December 2011 @ 10:05 pm
Haven't posted anything on here in forever.

Christmas seems to have snuck up a lot faster this year. It helps that work has been ridiculously busy especially since I got promoted. Learning a new role which is a lot more complicated than my previous one, and trying to teach a new staff member that doesn't seem to retain even the simplest information has been a bit stressful, but in the long run the new things I'm learning will help me move into the next level of commercial banking.

Things have been pretty chill on the home front. Haven't really been going out as much for social events. Kinda feeling hermity. Been trying to go to the gym more often and change some of the eating habits in an attempt to fit into my bathing suit in February.

In other news Mike has now witnessed the way I eviscerate and consume a grapefruit and he hasn't left me so I consider that a bonus :)
09 July 2011 @ 02:16 am
you come down to a friends girlfriends bedroom in your underwear thinking you're getting laid...despite the fact that this girlfriend saw your game from a mile away and waited patiently in her clothes for you to come down and make an ass of yourself before swiftly dismissing you.

you have the nerve to skulk past your friend in your underwear when he is sleeping on the couch, with the asinine idea that his girlfriend of 2 years is just gonna lay down and spread em'.

fuck you.
I started working on the paintings I hope to contribute to Rob's show. Because I am an inherently messy person and this translates directly to my style of painting, I thought it best to take the party outside onto the front lawn and capitalize on both the space and use of the sun. I'm off to a good start so far, i'd say about 60% complete, though I desperately need some constructive criticism before I continue, and well, if the weather would co-operate at some point before the show so I can finish the paintings that would be great too. Right now there's one of the two paintings that I'm liking way more than the other, but I'll have to wait and see how things progress to determine if they will remain as a duo.

It was however quite amusing to notice the neighbours gawking and passers by try and be nosey without looking like they are being nosey. It's not every day you walk past some chick with her boobs hanging out of her top pelting two pieces of wood with jars of paint while industrial music blasts from the deck. It was fun.
13 February 2011 @ 09:38 pm
i painted tonight for the first time since i graduated. i successfully completed the preliminary layers of 2 pieces that might end up in Rob's show if they are dry in time. i think i found an interesting way of representing the particular phobia i have chosen, though i want to see if anyone can identify it so i wont give it away here ;)

i also submitted my resume to a co-workers wife today as he recommended me very highly for a position at the contracting firm where she works. Apparently they are holding off on posting the position to the public until they meet me. My only concern with the position is what prospects exist (if any) for advancement. The salary would be awesome, as well as a more challenging job in general, however as it is an admin/project management job, I think it might be limited in terms of career development. If that is the case it might be worth it to hold out at the bank for a few more months and try and snag a position at head office away from the customer service side of things. Will have to wait and see.
10 February 2011 @ 08:18 pm
I find it very satisfying that today, while exceptionally short staffed, my manager confided in me that she felt more comfortable leaving the new trainee with a 6 week employee than with either of the other 2 employees who have been around for 6 and 5 months respectively. Even more hilarious was the fact that both the employees took note of it and were bitching about it when they thought I couldn't hear them.

I can't help but think that intuitively, if a person noticed that they were being surpassed by new hires, being constantly made fun off for their lack of intelligence, and generally being treated like an inferior employee, that they would sit up and wonder why. If the individual had even the slightest determination to be a useful human, they would hopefully inquire as to why they were so far behind the rest of the pack; or more accurately, being trampled by the heard. They then would hopefully seek to improve upon themselves in order to remedy the delegation of Useless Twat. I guess it depends which god you pray to as to whether or not you take responsibility for your actions.
Better yet would be to acknowledge your chronic failure and quit, thus making room for new, more useful employees.

I think at this point my manager has realized her mistake at not eliminating the worse of the two when she had the chance. I often wonder why more managers don't take advantage of the 90 day probation period in which employees can be terminated for virtually no reason whatsoever. If after 2 months the person hasn't come close to meeting or even trying to meet the expectations laid before them, then they should no longer have a job. I'm tired of the coddling and the pity party for people who are obviously intellectually inferior and who lack initiative. You can't change these retards. However you can show them the door and the address to the nearest Mcdonalds.
08 January 2011 @ 01:28 am
There are a series of these coming so stay tuned.

This edition features the various reasons why I will probably never travel with my family again no matter how free it is.

My mother, the source of most of my familial woes, is a colossal pain in the ass. i find myself wondering at what point in time she will cease treating me like I'm 5 years old. The entire trip was one big worry fest with a constant nagging noise coming from her direction. Everything had to be done they way she wanted, and the complaints about the resort, the airport, the people etc. were endless. Oh, and lets not forget the fact that she was crippled shortly before the trip (something involving a shifted kneecap, who fucking cares) and it was the source of much continued belly aching.

She insisted on holding on to my passport and all my documents, which was fine, we all checked in together anyways, but she made it seem like i couldn't be responsible for my own travel arrangements. Even coming home she was hollering after me as to whether or not I had filled in my customs forms. Like, does she not remember that I traversed Europe ALONE for six weeks?

The complaints about the trip itself irritated me the most. I mean, she picked this place, so shouldn't at least take responsibility and shut up? She bitched about the kids at the resort, despite the fact that myself and both my brothers pushed to go to an adult resort...which she obviously ignored. She bitched about the service around the pool/lack there of, but when you treat your husband like some kind of lap dog and make him get you drinks anyways, who really cares? She bitched about the food being too oily, or too salty, or fried. Its fucking Mexico. Fucking DUH!

She dictated everything about the trip. When and where we went and for how long, and she acted all pissy when I would go off and do something on my own, even though she kept saying "this is your holiday too" and that we didn't need to hang out as a group all the time.

I think the straw that broke the camels back was when she snapped at me when we got home and I reminded her, yes folks, I used the word reminded though she denies prior knowledge, that we had to drop off Mike at his place so he could get to work on time. And I quote "it's so nice of you to tell us about your plans at the last minute". Yes, because 3 weeks ago when I told you this scenario was a possibility that was definitely last minute. But hey, rather than adapt and get over it, its better just be a cunt and blame me for what wasn't really even an inconvenience.

The rebellion begins now. After coming home and discovering that Josh has once again been freeloading at our house, and that the door handle was broken after an attempted break in, my parents will not be receiving rent until they have confiscated Josh's key, thrown out the remnants of his shit, and fixed the fucking door. My primary goal for 2011 is to get out from under my parents thumb, and the sooner the better.
26 December 2010 @ 05:25 pm
It's hot here, but the noticeable absence of brimstone tells me this isn't hell, despite the implications of spending two weeks with my mother.

The plane ride and everything was the easy part, however anyone who know's me well probably knows I am not a morning person and therefore after being up at 4am to leave for the airport, waiting for 45 minutes to check in, flying for 5 hours on a plan crammed with screaming babies, then waiting for our luggage which was was the last off the plane in a stuffy airport, further being crammed in the comical "red light green light security game show" line for an additional 30 minutes, and finally bussed to our hotel 2 hours after that, I was probably not a happy camper. My family members weren't either, and first impressions of the resort revolved around the words slow as fuck.

However, subsequent days to the initial lack lustre arrival have been great, namely because we discovered a large adults only pool area directly next to a large bar and restaurant in an area of the resort where apparently no one else goes. Awesome. The weather has been pretty good. It was pretty overcast today, but considering it didn't rain as the forecast had called for, I was happy. Went for a massage at the spa yesterday and I have the general intention of making another trip there for an undecided treatment next week. Eagerly anticipating Mike's arrival as I could desperately use some intelligent conversation...among other things ;)

Hope everyone had a good Christmas.
13 December 2010 @ 09:27 pm
I was getting ready to nap this afternoon, and heard something weird downstairs. I came down to find Cuda playing with the wheels on my DJ controller. Naturally he saw me and took off like a bat out of hell before i could get a picture but it sure was funny.

So yeah, her's a different Dj kitty instead :)